I am always writing in my head. Some times these thoughts make it here, sometimes they end up scribbled on a note pad. Sometimes I will see something, experience something or read something that strikes right at my Muse and shakes her up a bit. I love questions that make me think. The above quote is from the creator of Trying God's Patience, an inspirational Facebook page. She is also a published author, mentor and friend. I have come to value her insights, her poignant remarks and tough attitude. I love that she makes me think, she makes me mad and she makes me want to be better. I love that she challenges me and does not even realize it. I love that she wants to help me be better. A better writer, creator and editor. ( I have a thing for commas) What I admire most is that she makes me think. She challenges me and with a simple question- "What does the world you want to live in look like" she sets my Muse on fire and away I go.
What does the world you want to live in look like? I closed my eyes. I challenged my perceptions and my wants and tried to really see the world I am working so hard to create for myself and my family. The first 10 things that popped into my head where of what I didn't want to look at in my world. Then on to things I wanted, dreamed of and wished for. I let my thoughts go. Then, abruptly they came to a screeching halt and I could almost feel that muse of mine sitting there shaking her head at me. Took me long enough to figure it out.
I want my world to look exactly as it does. I want the sunshine and the storms. I want the bitter cold and hotter than hell heat. I want happiness and rainbows. I want sadness and pain. I want all of it. The good, the bad and the ugly. Because what I want to see when I look at my world is balance. Love and hate. I want my past. I want my present. I want my future. My history led me here, my present is shaping it and my future will take me where I need to be. None of this would have happened if my world wasn't exactly as it is. I wouldn't be me. You have to have some sadness to truly appreciate that happiness. You have to lose to realize the importance of what you gain. You have to struggle, because how will you know when you have arrived on the other side. You have to face challenges and life lessons to become strong and confident. You have to face certain truths to learn about the most important person in your world. You.
I know I want more color in my life. I want less of playing it safe and more of taking chances. I want solitude and I want to be out there. I want experience and I want knowledge. But most important of all, I want balance.
What does the world you want to live in look like?