As I grow older I find myself thinking back to those merry-go-rounds, realizing that in a way, they really are a symbol of life and time. So fast do the days blur together, weeks seem to disappear in a heartbeat and before we know what happened, years have come and gone.
Yet, we continue to spin on to some future time when things will be better, we will be happier; we will be ready to live.
I also think back to the times when I was on the merry-go-round and the trust I had to place in the person that was controlling the speed. Knowing that it was completely out of my control and always thinking that I needed to speak up for myself, needed to tell them I wasn't ok with what they were doing, that I was frightened and scared of getting hurt. I remember feeling trapped between the posts, my back up against the center and feeling that whatever happened next was not something I could do anything about. I just had to hold on and hope for the best. Reminds me of a good portion of my life. Where the needs of others always came first and I was left with my back against the wall wondering when it would be my turn to control my life.
Life is always going to spin. At times it may start to feel like that merry-go-round at the playground, faster and faster and out of your control. There will be blurred times, dark times, light filled times and stretches of crazy out-of-control times. And while we can't control the passage of time, we can control how we spend it. In fact it is something we must do. We must consciously be aware of the moments we have, the fears that hold us back and that sometimes we just have to let go and allow ourselves the freedom to fly.
We must remember to not get so caught up in making a life, dealing with life or just floating through life that we actually forget to live life. Stop chasing happiness, stop chasing that pot of gold and stop chasing those better tomorrows. Those better tomorrows are right now, because right now is all we have. Cherish it.