you would have bitten it clean off.
I am not by nature an irritable - short tempered person. But, I find that there are certain types of people, certain situations and certain things in life that bring the snark out of me whether I want it to come or not. Things that never fail to bring out the snark - people who cannot grasp the concept of responsibility and people who blame everyone else for their misfortunes. I also find that I have no patience for power trips and people who feel that putting others down, making up stories about or disrespecting others, somehow makes them more important than anyone else. I also tend to get irritable when life has me running in a thousand directions and I can't squeeze in time to write, more so when it is because others are not doing things that they are supposed to and in turn forcing me to handle things that I shouldn't have to.
Sadly, yes at times it is. Doesn't mean I have to like it. Doesn't mean I have to keep quiet about it either. Each and every one of us gets snarky and each one of us knows our triggers too. The question is how to handle them.
One of my biggest triggers is when someone will not take responsibility for their own life. The person who spends more time complaining about things, circumstances, their health, finances or whatever, and no time actually doing something about it. The person that blames everything and everyone else for all that is wrong with their life and never stops to think, "Hey maybe if I changed this, worked more, or fixed myself, my life would get better." What I have learned is that no matter how hard you try, how much you do or support you offer, you cannot help someone who refuses to help themselves. Also, and this is a big thing, if you keep doing, fixing, taking care of everything - they will never do it on their own. Why would they? So simply put - stop. Just like that. Maybe they step up and handle their own life, maybe they find someone else. The point being it will no longer be you.
I don't like feeling snarky. This feeling tends to block my writing muse, make me tired, snappy and all around cranky. I don't like feeling cornered either by the actions of others forcing me to either put up or shut up about things that are making me this way. I know that I need to work on patience with certain situations. Patience with myself too, as I often have to learn, relearn and re-relearn that I may not be able to control how certain people act, but I can control how I react to them. I need to learn that if I am constantly running in circles and never seem to have enough time - it is MY personal responsibility to see that I get the time I need. If that means leaving the dishes in the sink or a messy living room, so be it.
For the record, I have also found that screaming into pillows occasionally helps to relieve some tension, as does going for a drive with the windows down and the music up. But stop bottling it up. It is not healthy, it is not fair and it sure as hell isn't going to solve anything. Get proactive and rid those snarky causing people from your life.
Now, I have dishes to do. Sigh.