To me, scars are a sign that though once wounded- you have healed.
So many times in our lives we stand at a precipice to some decision we need to make, something we need to let go of or some life lesson we must weave into the fabric of our lives before we can continue on. Sometimes it causes us to lose our footing and stumble. Sometimes it can paralyze us to the point that we second guess ourselves and in turn let fear plant our feet when we should be moving forward. We may be willing our feet to move but at the same time saying to ourselves "Oh hell no". So we stand there- stuck. Indecision pulled around our shoulders like a cloak we talk ourselves out of what we need to do because we are scared or certain that we are doomed to fail or fall down. We over think everything instead of just doing.
We become our own worst enemy.
We know that we may need help to get to where we need to be. There are times when our stubbornness and refusal to ask for this help hurts more than our pride. It can hurt our minds and our bodies. To ask for help means that we see ourselves as weak and if you are like me; I would sooner poke myself in the eye then admit I need help. Never showing weakness has served me well throughout my life and I have always handled what life threw at me. Handled it, dealt with it and moved on from it. But as I have gone through this past month not being able to walk, not being able to do much of anything because of my injury I found myself faced with a life lesson I never saw coming.
Couple of them actually.
There will be times in our lives that we must do something that may hurt emotionally or physically. Moments we will face that will leave scars on our skin or our soul. To me, scars are a sign that though once wounded- you have healed. It will not happen overnight but it will happen.
Asking for help or allowing someone to stand next to you should you stumble is not a sign of weakness; it is a sign of true strength. Even the strongest of people have to set their burdens down for awhile. Trust in those that step up to carry it for you and remind yourself that you will pick up and carry on again soon. But for now you will trust in the goodness and the strength of another to get you to where you need to be.
Stop giving up. Stop making excuses. Stop babying yourself and convincing yourself that you are not strong enough or smart enough to do what needs doing. Stop talking yourself out of decisions and learn to follow your gut. Learn to inspire yourself. Put the brakes on over thinking everything and learn to simply do. Simply act. Set your sights on where you need to be, on what you need to do, plan out your steps and then- GO. Trust in your initial decisions, don't over think it, and when it hurts or the pain becomes almost too unbearable- dig a little deeper. Encourage yourself instead of berating yourself. Challenge yourself instead of always walking the safest and straightest route. Be more of you then you ever thought possible and then go further.
I squared my shoulders, relaxed my mind, and went on intuition. Those first few steps without the support of my crutches were terrifying and liberating all at the same time. Sure it hurt, but the relief of finally being on my way to healing overpowered the pain. My confidence grew with each step and I made it to that wall. The sun shining through that window could not have felt any sweeter. As it will be with whatever you are facing- trust in those that want to help you. Inspire yourself to get to where you need to be.
Then as Nike so aptly says, "Just Do It."