The gut-punch life lesson I learned at an early age... people will believe horrible things about you because it makes them feel better. It makes them feel superior. Especially if you are a successful, well rounded person. Stop defending yourself to people who didn't give it a second thought when they judged you.
They don't deserve it.
~J.V. Manning
They don't deserve it.
~J.V. Manning
It was the middle of August and the air was heavy, hot and humid. I remember wanting nothing more than to be sitting on my special rock next to the ocean, drinking iced coffee and feeling the cool ocean breeze. Instead, I was on my hands and knees scrubbing a bathroom floor. Wasn't even my bathroom, it was my moms. I remember being hot, tired, frustrated and feeling like Cinderella with an evil step-mother. My mother in the meantime was in the living room on the phone with one of her friends. Sitting near a fan and drinking iced tea, she was lamenting about how awful and useless her daughters were. How they did nothing to help her out gave her nothing but trouble and was just horrible to her every day. She would pause here and there during the conversation and sniffle at the injustice of it all. I could hear this from my position on the bathroom floor with a cloud of chemical cleaners surrounding my head and sweat pouring down my back. I remember closing my eyes and trying to still the rising sadness in my mind. This wasn't the first time I had heard her go on like this, wouldn't be the last either.
It didn't matter that I paid her mortgage for years, or that I worked 50 - 60 hours a week. It didn't matter that I cleaned her house or sat there and listened to her problems for hours after working a 14 hour day. Never mattered that my sister and I paid her bills, bought groceries and handled her ever increasing instability, when she talked to her friends, other family members or really anyone that would listen, we were horrible creatures.
It didn't matter that I paid her mortgage for years, or that I worked 50 - 60 hours a week. It didn't matter that I cleaned her house or sat there and listened to her problems for hours after working a 14 hour day. Never mattered that my sister and I paid her bills, bought groceries and handled her ever increasing instability, when she talked to her friends, other family members or really anyone that would listen, we were horrible creatures.
Thing is, she was believable. Even to me and I knew better. I learned that speaking up and defending myself or calling her out on her lies, never made a difference. I also learned that people will believe whatever someone tells them if they want to - and nothing you say to counteract it, will be believed. So I stopped defending myself and if people wanted to think the worst about me with never having actually talked to me...I let them. I don't need them nor do I want them in my life. Sure it hurt like hell, sure it made me question everything I did and how I handled everything. Maybe I wasn't doing enough, maybe they were right. So I did more and when it still it wasn't enough, I finally realized - this is how it was. Some people regardless of how well you think you know them, love them or trust them – will believe everything told to them, that makes you out to be a horrible person. Don’t ask me why – just seems to happen this way with certain types of people.
Being lied about is horrible in itself. But I think what is worse is when someone lies about you to someone in your life and this person believes it without ever coming to you. Recently, this subject has come up with a couple of friends of mine. One woman's reputation was attacked by a supposed "friend" for reasons no one can seem to figure out. In a grown up game of telephone - this "friend" had gone to various mutual friends and spread made up stories. This act in itself was hateful and heartbreaking to my friend. She hadn't done what this woman had claimed, not only was she not the type, but she wasn't even around when she was supposedly doing these things. But there were a few people who believed the stories. They took them at face value and completely allowed it to change their perception of her. She was labeled a troublemaker, a liar and a fraud. She lost friends because of one woman's stories that were nothing but fiction.
Being lied about is horrible in itself. But I think what is worse is when someone lies about you to someone in your life and this person believes it without ever coming to you. Recently, this subject has come up with a couple of friends of mine. One woman's reputation was attacked by a supposed "friend" for reasons no one can seem to figure out. In a grown up game of telephone - this "friend" had gone to various mutual friends and spread made up stories. This act in itself was hateful and heartbreaking to my friend. She hadn't done what this woman had claimed, not only was she not the type, but she wasn't even around when she was supposedly doing these things. But there were a few people who believed the stories. They took them at face value and completely allowed it to change their perception of her. She was labeled a troublemaker, a liar and a fraud. She lost friends because of one woman's stories that were nothing but fiction.
To me - this speaks more about her friends who believed it, than to the one who started it. When she and I talked about it - my reaction was, well now you know who your true friends are. Because your friends are the ones that will always believe in you. Or come to you first before just believing a random story, to get your side of things. Not just cut you off, judge you and tell you how awful you are. I told her she didn't need people like that in her life. She is a tremendous woman. Her integrity is solid, she is caring and wonderful person. People who would believe anything less do not deserve a place in her world. She is worth so much more than that.
Another friend had a similar situation when a co-worker was spreading lies about him at work. This co-worker was upset with my friend and decided that he would get him back by telling anyone who would listen, how much of a jerk he was, how he never stood up for his employees and was awful to work for. People believed him. When it got back to my friend, a guy who pours his heart and soul into his work, who treats his workers like family, he was heartbroken. Not so much at what had been said - but more so because of what had been believed. He was devastated to think that people who knew him - would ever believe such stories.
The gut-punch life lesson I learned at an early age... people will believe horrible things about you because it makes them feel better. It makes them feel superior. Especially if you are a successful, well rounded person. Stop defending yourself to people who didn't give it a second thought when they judged you. They don't deserve it. And they probably won't believe you anyway. If someone is spreading lies about you, telling stories and starting rumors and some people believe them without first coming to you directly - well you don't need them in your life anyway. It is their loss. For not taking the time to see for themselves. For not taking the time to make their own judgements based on their own perceptions and for being so quick to think the worst of you. They weren't really good friends or family for that matter, to begin with.
Another friend had a similar situation when a co-worker was spreading lies about him at work. This co-worker was upset with my friend and decided that he would get him back by telling anyone who would listen, how much of a jerk he was, how he never stood up for his employees and was awful to work for. People believed him. When it got back to my friend, a guy who pours his heart and soul into his work, who treats his workers like family, he was heartbroken. Not so much at what had been said - but more so because of what had been believed. He was devastated to think that people who knew him - would ever believe such stories.
The gut-punch life lesson I learned at an early age... people will believe horrible things about you because it makes them feel better. It makes them feel superior. Especially if you are a successful, well rounded person. Stop defending yourself to people who didn't give it a second thought when they judged you. They don't deserve it. And they probably won't believe you anyway. If someone is spreading lies about you, telling stories and starting rumors and some people believe them without first coming to you directly - well you don't need them in your life anyway. It is their loss. For not taking the time to see for themselves. For not taking the time to make their own judgements based on their own perceptions and for being so quick to think the worst of you. They weren't really good friends or family for that matter, to begin with.
People who love you and who cherish you are ones who believe in you. Who take the good and the bad and love you for both. True friends will defend you, stand up for you and come to you first. The ones who spread lies about you, tell untrue stories and make you out to be something you aren't, for whatever reason, obviously are not your friend. But neither are the ones who believe the stories, rumors, and untruths. It will break your heart when these people show their true colors for sure, but remind yourself that you deserve to be surrounded by authentic friends and family. And though it may hurt for a while - you will be better off without them.
Never for a moment doubt yourself because of another's dishonesty. Stop spending time defending yourself to people who were so quick to believe the worst and surround yourself with authentic friends who see and love you for who you are. People who have seen you at your worst and at your best, and love you without fail.
It hurts so much when you hear how certain people feel about you. It hurts when someone has formed an erroneous opinion about your character without ever really getting to know you. The real truth of the matter is - it really isn't about you at all. It is more about them, their view of the world, their own lack of self-esteem, and inability to form their own judgements.
Some people in this world will just not like you. So what? Spend time and thoughts on the ones who do. For it is those that will walk beside you throughout life. Focus and believe in those that always believe in you. The rest do not deserve your time, thoughts or energy.
They do not deserve... you.
Never for a moment doubt yourself because of another's dishonesty. Stop spending time defending yourself to people who were so quick to believe the worst and surround yourself with authentic friends who see and love you for who you are. People who have seen you at your worst and at your best, and love you without fail.
It hurts so much when you hear how certain people feel about you. It hurts when someone has formed an erroneous opinion about your character without ever really getting to know you. The real truth of the matter is - it really isn't about you at all. It is more about them, their view of the world, their own lack of self-esteem, and inability to form their own judgements.
Some people in this world will just not like you. So what? Spend time and thoughts on the ones who do. For it is those that will walk beside you throughout life. Focus and believe in those that always believe in you. The rest do not deserve your time, thoughts or energy.
They do not deserve... you.
