Never Settle

                            He felt now that he was not simply close to her, but that he
                                         did not know where he ended and she began. 
                                                                                                                                                   ~Leo Tolstoy 


Normally I am not a sappy type of woman. I despise romance novels, the Twilight saga and anything that remotely smacks of  the cutesy, gooey or overly sentimental. I am not into chick flicks, and for the most part avoid anything to "girly" for lack of a better word. For the longest time, I avoided everything to had anything to do with love. I had reality and in reality, what I saw was what I got and I was OK with that. There were no feelings, not wanting and no chance I was going to get hurt. I had walls 12 feet thick with steel re-bar in the middle and no door. OK, maybe not literally, but my defenses were solid. Until they weren't, not when this man came waltzing through them, like they were air and he was in my life, like I wanted him there. Which I didn't. Not at first. 

A friend of mine asked me last week, what is true love? I bit back the sarcastic reply that was quick on my lips, and actually thought about it. I looked at that guy that had waltzed into my life and never left. Its been 8 years and we haven't missed a beat. I looked at him and saw, well I saw a whole lot. I saw my past and my future, my beginning and my end. I saw 2 halves and one complete whole. I saw happy and sad, strength and weakness and I saw, love. Real love. It is knowing, without knowing, it is that fit, the melding of souls that can't be seen only felt. It is the feeling of a part of your soul becoming whole as it seamlessly fits with another. It is not work, there is no effort... it simple happens on a karmic level. It is the feeling of coming home, of finding some part of yourself that you didn't even realize it was missing until you find it. There is no question, there is no doubt. True real love simply, is. You hear it in a sigh, you see it in a gaze, you sense it while in its presence. Like air, it just simply is. It is the feeling of being whole. 

Real love isn't work. There is no thought process that goes into it. It is either there, or it isn't. You can't force it, hide it or deny it. If you walk away from it, you will leave that piece of you behind. You don't find it, it finds you. Once you experience it, you never really question it, because it just is.  I look at my husband now and sometimes it is hard to tell where I end and he begins. We are 2 distinctly different people, that form a whole that is as solid as the ground I walk upon. I don't doubt it, I am not scared of it. What I am, is in awe of it. 

Never settle for less than you deserve.  Not to sound trite here, but the quote, "Life's not the breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away" is about perfect. Relationships require work, love not so much. If you have to work at it, work at making someone love you, than its probably not the real thing. It should be effortless and smooth. 

And that is about as sappy as I will ever get.. I am a lucky girl and found the need to share tonight. Never, ever settle for less than you deserve and for less than that perfect moment, that lasts a lifetime and takes your breath away. ♥