No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep believing,
the dream that you wish will come true. - Cinderella
The older I get the more I realize through all the dark times that can happen, they are never permenate. They will eventually fade, and it is up to me to determine what is left behind after its over. It would be so easy to just shut down and coast... but that is no way to live. Got to keep believing in something..the best thing is always to believe in yourself.
I wonder sometimes why this is so hard. Why believing in oneself at times is almost impossible. Why are we our own worst enemy? If we can't believe in ourselves, have faith in our abilities, understand our strengths, then how can we expect anyone else to? Why is it that we feel the need to have the world validate us? The only opinion in this world that we really need to be concerned about, is our own. When we are sad, grieving, lost, it is not the world's responsibility to find us, fix us or heal us. It is totally on us. When did we lose faith in ourselves? I hear people say all the time, "when I am stronger" "when I am happy" "when I finish grieving", then I will live again. They shut down and coast through life, they make a life while never actually living it. They place their dreams, hopes and desires in a box and put it in the closet. Coasting becomes habit, habit becomes character and character becomes their life. I am guilty of this, myself. Tired of life blows as I call them, I just stopped at some point. I put my dreams and belief of myself in a box and called it good. I was too bruised, to jaded, to tired. This worked for me for awhile, until it just didn't work for me any more. I started my writing again, started believing in myself and taking my life back. Life can throw me body blow after body blow, and I will take it head on, deal with it and then move on. Nothing will knock you down forever, only thing that keeps you there is yourself. You are responsible. While you can not control others, their actions, their issues or their lives. You can totally control your RE-actions to it. What are your dreams? What do you want for you, RIGHT NOW? Write it down, make a to do list. Yep a To Do List. A To Do For YOU List. Then start crossing things off, baby steps at first, but the more you believe in yourself, the better you will do. Like Cinderella says; Have faith in your dreams and someday, your rainbow will come shining through. Stop waiting for the world to validate you, You validate yourself.