Perceptions

Me Sarcastic? Nooooo.... Ok fine maybe be alittle bit..what ok fine maybe alot. Often times I find myself reverting to sarcasm in order to avoid saying what is really on my mind. Why? Well usually just because I don't want to deal with the B.S that arises when I tell someone that they are driving me nuts or I use it as a shield to ward off the natural stupidity that we all must deal with on a daily basis. Does this make me a bad person...depends on who you ask..however I think it makes me a thoughtful caring person... and its fun for me at the same time. Ever have a completely sarcastic conversation with someone? It can be quite entertaining and will often help relieve the stress of having to deal with that certain person. You know you all are thinking about someone right now.

Sometimes though, I will use sarcasm as a defense, so as not to let on what is going on inside my head.. It works good to keep people at arm length and leave them wondering what the hell is she thinkin.. I like to follow up sarcasm with a touch of humor..I have figured out over the years though, that it can back fire. People will actually think I am being serious with them, that I am totally agreeable with what they are saying and will leave the conversation feeling that they heard or got exactly what they wanted.

It got me to thinking, about how people hear, see or remember exactly what they want. They take their version of reality, regardless of how flawed it may be and thats it. I have a friend that when you talk to him about things that have happened in the past, his version is so off base you wonder if he was even there.  But he saw what he wanted to, remembers what he wants to, so that he can feel good about it. It makes me realize that you can experience something with someone and their take on the whole thing can be so vastly different then yours that it can be hard to find the truth.  I guess truth is relative to the person experiencing it, but how can 2 people see the same thing so differently? It dawned on me, that people will spin things exactly the way they comfortable with, regardless if its accurate or not.  People seem to have a incredibly hard time seeing themselves. I mean really looking at themselves. They would rather spin a slightly different version of a story, then face the fact that they were an asshole and own up to it. To do so would often times require a little soul searching to see that yeah, maybe they made a mistake, or maybe didn't follow through on a promise or whatnot, and maybe a strong reflection of one's self is needed. We all have been this person at one time or another. But the difference is, once you look at a situation honestly, see that maybe its not as you remember it, maybe you really were ::gasp:: wrong...what do you do?  In my experience people will just continue to roll with their version..easier then owning it or admitting that they were wrong.  What type of person are you? Will you own your mistakes and learn from them? Or will you continue to only see what you want to see and never look deeper? 

Something tells me, that my sarcasm skills will always be needed in this life..