is just a place to turn around
Rock bottom. To me, Rock Bottom was a starting point. Solid ground in which to begin to build the foundation of my life. If you are lucky, that foundation is built when you are a child. But if you are like me, the foundation of my childhood had so many cracks in it, I needed to rebuild it. When one bottoms out in life, it is not the end of the world. Though at the time, it sure as hell feels like it. But there is truth in the saying that the only way you have to go from the very bottom is up. You have to want it though, you have to want to start rebuilding a solid foundation first, in which to place the rest of your life on. That foundation is your soul. You must make it solid and strong and plant it firmly on the ground. But its construction is completely up to you, where you build it, how you build it and how fast. All hitting rock bottom is, is giving you solid ground in which to build.
I spent a few hours talking with a girl last night that had hit rock bottom, she wanted to die. She was tired of the constant struggle, the finding her place in this world, to wanting to feel peace. She was hundreds of miles away from me, someone I have never met, yet I felt her struggle as if she were in the room with me. Knowing that as hard as I tried, as much as I could give, the only one that could lay the first brick of a new foundation on which to build her life was her. I could be there, I could lend my shoulder, my ear and my heart, but I couldn't do it for her. What I tried to show her, was that she mattered. All day I have thought about it. Rock bottom hurts like hell when you hit it, you are disoriented, ashamed, sad and scared. You look around and see nothing. You panic and you fret and you often just want to lay your head down and say, no more. I am tired. But it is in these moments, the darkest ones of your life, that a spark is born. You plant you feet and get your bearings. You get fired up and you fight. You fight for yourself.
Your life may be upside down, but all that is doing is giving you a new perspective. A fresh new start, fresh new chapter. You control it completely. You grab life by the balls and say.. Now we do it my way. And then you do. One brick at a time, you lay your new foundation and you build. Slow, steady and the way you want it. You learn to value yourself and what you contribute to your world. You do what you have to do, to first survive, then get strong and then happy. Proud of the fact that even at your worst, you never totally gave up on yourself.
Even when it feels like the world has given up, that the bottom is speeding up at you.. Just remember what I told you, Rock Bottom is good solid ground. A solid start to what will become your life, as you make it. Kick some ass ♥