After a delicious seafood dinner out at a local restaurant I got into the car and immediately opened the sunroof and put down my window. I couldn't get enough of the promise of fall, I couldn't get enough of the air that felt so light compared to hot and heaviness of the humidity we have in the summer. As we pulled out and started driving home, I laid my head in the crook of the seat belt and closed my eyes, letting the rushing wind surround my entire being. It was in this moment that I could feel something inside me loosen and start to release.
I felt as if I were flying through the night air and weaving in and out of the stars that were just starting to twinkle. In the rush of the wind around me and the freshness of the air flowing inside my lungs I realized with sudden clarity how tense I had been. How weighted down and exhausted I had allowed myself to become. Over the course of the past few months I lost touch with myself because I have been focusing on everything and everyone else. Life had become a whirlwind as of late and I allowed myself, without even realizing, to get caught up in it. Lost my balance I did and until that very moment traveling home with a full belly, I hadn't even realized it.
I start my days at 5 a.m. and normally don't quit until 11 o'clock at night. Every hour is filled with something and lately it seems that I blink and a month goes by. I hate losing track of life. But, when things cycle at such a rapid pace it is so easy to do. Especially when you allow yourself to become almost robotic in seeing to everything you must accomplish and take care of. In essence, we remove the humanness of ourselves and any emotional attachment and focus more on the end result of crossing things off our to do list.
We need to realize the fate of the world does not in fact rest on us completing that list.
We will always be busy. There were always be things we must see to and chores that need taking care of. That's life. However, we must work to live, not live to work. We must pay attention to our bodies and emotional states, too. If you are going about your life at warp speed, eating on the fly, not taking care of yourself and never catching your breath or resting and refueling your mind and soul, you will run yourself into the ground.
We must learn, myself included, to schedule time for ourselves. To just simply be. To focus our minds inside of our own souls, to listen to our heartbeat and clear our minds. We must ground ourselves and spend time identifying things we can let go of. We must look for things we really do not need in our life and let them go. We must organize not only our kitchens but our minds. We must simplify life as much as we can. We only get one life and if we are so busy doing, working, cleaning and chasing after that never-ending "To Do" List, we will waste it completely.
I will add "Live your life!!" to my "To Do" List and let it serve as a reminder. We only get one shot at this. I don't want to arrive at the end of my days and look back with regret. I want to look back and see how hard I worked, how hard I loved and how far I had come to get to that moment. I want to see a life lived to the fullest. Brimming with memories and moments that made it truly worth living.
What do you want to look back and see?