One step closer to what? No idea. I ask myself this all the time. Thing of it is, something I've learned, the not knowing is the essence of life. None of us know where all the steps we are taking are leading to. No one knows with any certainty what the next hour, day or month will bring. We can guess. We can hope and dream. Or we can sit idly by and hold our breath while life continues to happen all around us.
I, for one, am done holding my breath. I am done watching life happen. My mistakes may get even bigger from here on out because I am going to take bigger steps. All of my life up to this moment has been spent doing what everyone else needed me to do. Now, as I end this year; which I have come to see as a huge year of closure, of moving on, of rediscovering parts of myself I had long forgotten about and meeting for the first time other parts I never even knew existed, I only know one thing for certain and that is... To fully embrace our lives, our journey and to reach the goals and aspirations we have for ourselves, we must own every facet of our lives. Our thoughts, our inner voice that whispers inside our minds and our actions. We must live life on purpose. We must learn the art of mindfully letting go - bad memories, attachment to the past or whatever it is holding us back. We are our choices and those choices will be what defines where we go in the New Year.
A New Year on its own - holds no power. It’s simply a blank book for us to fill with our stories.
One of the most treasured lines in the story is from Anne's favorite teacher; “Tomorrow is always fresh with no mistakes in it...well with no mistakes in it yet.” I repeat this to myself often, as I am always making mistakes. Always. Once upon a time I would chastise and berate myself for making a mistake. I was my own worst critic. However, I have come to appreciate them, embrace them and see the wisdom that comes from making them. I have also learned - to stop holding onto them. Tomorrow is a fresh new day...
Actually, tomorrow is a fresh New Year.
As the year draws to a close figure out what you want to bring into the new one with you and what you want to leave behind. You made it to this moment. “Tomorrow is always fresh with no mistakes in it...well with no mistakes in it yet.” Allow yourself to hope, dream and be. Allow yourself freedom. Make mistakes and leaps of faith. Feel your strength and understand this; where you go from this moment is up to you.
May the days, weeks and months to come show you what you have on the inside, help you embrace your amazing self and love without limits. May you discover what makes you come alive and find the strength and courage you need to do just that!
Happy New Year.